{"id":218,"date":"2003-09-20T23:56:59","date_gmt":"2003-09-20T23:56:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/the19thfloor.net\/?p=218"},"modified":"2003-09-20T23:56:59","modified_gmt":"2003-09-20T23:56:59","slug":"in_my_solitude","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/the19thfloor.net\/?p=218","title":{"rendered":"In My Solitude"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Just saw American Splendor tonight.  A remarkably funny yet sad movie.  I saw aspects of my own life in those of the characters.  There&#8217;s a sequence where the real Harvey Pekar and his friend Toby are discussing how they cope with the loneliness in their lives.  And I started to think about how I deal with my own loneliness.  By reading.  By watching television.  By writing things like this blog.  And maybe I look to my nurses too much for companionship.  It&#8217;s not like I don&#8217;t have friends, but most of them have families now and I don&#8217;t see them much.  When I was interviewing for new nurses this summer, I deliberately looked for people who I thought I&#8217;d like hanging out with.  I went out with one of them tonight and it is nice to have people who I enjoy spending time with.  But they are, after all, paid to be my friends.  And this is probably how the rest of my life will be.  While it&#8217;s probably not  the life I would have chosen had I any say in the matter, it&#8217;s still sweet and I wouldn&#8217;t trade it for anything.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Just saw American Splendor tonight. A remarkably funny yet sad movie. I saw aspects of my own life in those of the characters. There&#8217;s a sequence where the real Harvey Pekar and his friend Toby are discussing how they cope with the loneliness in their lives. And I started to think about how I deal <a href='https:\/\/the19thfloor.net\/?p=218' class='excerpt-more'>[&#8230;]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"sfsi_plus_gutenberg_text_before_share":"","sfsi_plus_gutenberg_show_text_before_share":"","sfsi_plus_gutenberg_icon_type":"","sfsi_plus_gutenberg_icon_alignemt":"","sfsi_plus_gutenburg_max_per_row":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-218","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","category-1-id","post-seq-1","post-parity-odd","meta-position-corners","fix"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9Iwau-3w","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/the19thfloor.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/218","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/the19thfloor.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/the19thfloor.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/the19thfloor.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/the19thfloor.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=218"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/the19thfloor.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/218\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/the19thfloor.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=218"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/the19thfloor.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=218"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/the19thfloor.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=218"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}