Oct 082003
 

Almost finished with the script for the first issue of my proposed comic. I am still having fun writing it, but I have no idea what to do with it once it’s complete. I don’t know any artists, so it will probably just sit on my hard drive along with a hundred other projects. But at least I’ll complete it, which is more than I can say for a lot of the other things I started to write. Over the past year my writing habits have become much more disciplined. And if there are any bored and aspiring comic book artists out there, e-mail me and we can feed each other’s delusions of fame and fortune.

Oct 072003
 

For all of you living in California, you have my sympathies. It looks like you’re about to get saddled with a Teutonic ass-grabber for governor. After the strange trip Minnesota experienced with Ventura, all I can say is enjoy your ability to be shocked while you still can. After a year of Ventura’s behavior, I became as jaded as a New Yorker in a Scorsese film. Nothing he said or did surprised me. And five will get you ten that Schwarzenegger will make two or three colossally stupid statements within thirty days of being sworn in.
I keep waiting for confirmation that iTunes for Windows will be unveiled this month. My iPod is only a tenth full and P2P is becoming a pain in the ass to use. So, what’s on your MP3 player/Discman/stereo/turntable?

Oct 062003
 

My dad called me this afternoon and, after reminding me to send him money for car insurance, mildly admonished me for what I write in my blog. I’m sure that there’s some stuff in here that probably makes them uncomfortable. I love my parents dearly, but they have always been a little overprotective of me, which is pretty typical of all parents of children with disabilities. And I’m also the oldest, which probably carries some expectations of “proper” behavior. “Try to be a little more intellectual,” my dad advised. I’ll keep that in mind, but I think all of you would flee this site like rats from a sinking ship if I just rehashed Salon every day.
Besides, I’m plenty intellectual at work, which is where this picture was taken:

Oct 052003
 


I took this picture last night of my slightly modded computer. All I did was put in a few fans with LED lights, but the effect is cool.

And here’s me working on my comic script. The headset I’m wearing communicates with the black box sitting on top of the monitor, which is how I move the mouse. I “click” with a piezoelectric switch that rests under my right thumb.
So I guess I’m starting a little photoblog here. It won’t be as cool as Xeni’s but I thought it might be interesting to illustrate some of the daily aspects of living with a physical disability like mine. And I also want to give everyone a sense of how beautiful Minnesota can be. Let me know if you get bored.

Oct 042003
 

Here’s some initial shots from my camera:

This is a shot of me and my lovely nurse Michelle using the camera’s remote timer.

And this is a picture looking out my window using the camera’s black and white filter.
I’ll probably be going out tonight and maybe I’ll have time to get some pictures of downtown at street level.

Oct 042003
 

I was totally irresponsible today and bought a digital camera. I just got home and I haven’t had a chance to run it through its paces yet, but be forewarned. I’m about to annoy you with dozens of redundant photos of my apartment, the sky, random people on the street, etc.

Oct 032003
 

Just before she left, my nurse and I were discussing our opinions regarding the existence of an afterlife. I don’t buy the concept at all while she was a little more willing to accept the possibility of something waiting for us once we shed this mortal coil. I’ll be honest, the thought of my own death scares me. The thought that one day I simply won’t be around to turn the page in a book, to answer the phone, that people will refer to me in the past tense; I find it all deeply disquieting. But that day will come and probably sooner than I’d like. Let”s not kid ourselves; I’m not bloody likely to be collecting retirement at 65. So while I’m here, I hope that others see me as a basically decent person. And I try to leave some small mark that will remain once I’m gone, even if it’s just this silly blog. I think life is one big messy, badly written novel. And it gives me some pleasure to know that people will read a few of my chapters even after I’m gone.

Oct 022003
 

Here’s something I didn’t know. Typing “Mark Siegel” into Google or Yahoo will bring up The 19th Floor as the top result. I discovered this after hearing from a couple people who had Googled me for background information and neither one knew about this blog until searching for my name. I find this quite amusing. And it probably means that I now have absolutely zero chance of getting another date. Ever. We all know how common Googling has become as a pre-dating safeguard. And would YOU go out with me after reading these entries? I can also forget about running for political office. If they can dig up stuff on Schwarzenegger from the ’70s, imagine what an easy target I’d make. No, any opportunity for deceiving the masses is now lost forever. The I’m-just-a-sweet-and-innocent-cripple act ain’t gonna cut it anymore. My cover is blown and I might as well just accept it. Maybe I can publish my book under a pseudonym. I can make up some shit about being eleven years old and an orphan who is bravely living with a terminal disease and I do all my writing from a hospital bed located in a small Iowan town. I’ll call my book “Heartchants” or “Heartmurmurs” or “HeartRaps.” Just as long as it has “Heart” in the title because people love that kind of stuff.
Yeah, that’s the ticket…